This past few months have been absorbing all my energy.
It was getting almost a bit over my head that all I wanted to do after work was fall asleep.
I do believe that good artists need an emotional life but there is a point where too much emotions can be distracting and contra productive.
In addition of me having a hard time I've also neglected my friends so much who thankfully had a lot of patience with me and listened throughout my constant moaning and moodyness. Thank you for sticking around and catching me everytime I was almost about to fall.
The lack of energy, again, reflected on me never touching the camera(s). This was a big mistake as I noticed today where I was trying to photograph a bird and even though it sat there for a very long time I didn't manage to take the picture because of me unable to set up my camera. This made me so frustrated with myself and reminded me how much photography also has to do with practice. I might have lost a really good shot but what I also lost as well was being one with my camera and not having to think. Big mistake.
I will now try and get over my emotional problems and heal myself with photography again. Because didn't I use to say that I breathed, lived, felt only through my lens? Where did that go?
Nenlith